ang sakit lang...

haha! grabeeehhh...hanggang ngayon wala pa rin akong naisip na may kwentang i post dito...kaya ito review ng review na lang muna sa mga pinagsusulat ko dati....

tulad na lang nito---hindi ako sure kung pa'no ko 'to na isulat basta ang alam ko-----"sakit" at depression lang na raramdaman ko nun...hindi ako emo hindi goth---pero .....arrgh! hindi ko kinaya talaga...

at ngayon, sinubukan kung basahin ulit----only to find----na wala pa lang sense at  wala akong na-intindihan sa sinulat kung 'to---ganun pala 'yon pag poot at galit ang nasa puso mo...---sa mga oras na 'yon.


(sulat 'to ni alter ego)

dying heart and broken

I am but shadow on a wall

I moan for no one can hear my call

In the beaming light I fear

for a gentle touch of it

can cause my skin to disappear

Times went by

Seasons have changed

But here I am awake and is still

As the twilight fills and the night falls

Still, the sound of silence is the lullaby

that keeps my eyes from closing

Upon the edge I’m standing

only to find out the truth, as it flicker on their faces,

pure enough for me to see

that even my shadow and blood

will turn against me

well, that is reality

Into the wave of crowd

I’m passing through

Saw the vicious eyes

looking for their next victim

Sounds of rage and violence

pierced through my ears

I found myself screaming

but nobody would tend to listen

I’m looking for something

I couldn’t even explain

I have nothing but this faith

I’m believing in

and this never ending string

The string of the wicked and death…

Through a looking glass

I see my face

there were ashes

divinely starts fading

and this room filled with beam

now starts drowning

This day may be over

and every breath I breathe I’ll save

bury myself to sleep

for tomorrow’s chances

This gushing blood I never felt

For this pain I earned is even worst

It’s too late for me to see

that’s something’s missing

Truth is but I’m all dead

for my heart is broken…